sweltering hot apartment, eating hot cheetos, listening to frank sinatra and i’m finally content. no longer hunted, how do you keep this feeling, this creativity?
staring at the rose-pink virgin de guadalupe votive candle i got for my birthday. the challenge could be to burn it all before you go back, she said.
10:56 pm • 20 December 2013
“But me, maybe I fit in a place like this. Maybe the cold inside of me will seem less cold in this winter. Maybe the tall buildings will make the brick walls I build for myself seem smaller. Maybe the noises in my head will quiet down in the middle of all the other noises. Or maybe my cold and walls and noise will get worse.”
— Witch Baby (Missing Angel Juan)
6:29 pm • 20 December 2013 • 63 notes
until i started watching this regularly, i didn’t realize how much it reminds me of me and torie.
12:58 am • 18 December 2013 • 30 notes
“Western cultural institutions such as the avant-garde have a history of rejuvenating themselves through the exploitation of disempowered peoples and cultures.”
— Fantasies of Oppositionality Coco Fusco (via torogozando)
5:46 pm • 16 December 2013 • 65 notes
yesterday, resting my fingers on the window, we pass the cemetery, i think about how beautiful it would be to be under the snow, quieter than anything else.
when i was fifteen i was hit by a car and i died in a way, floating outside of my body before coming back, and in that moment, i was happier than i have ever been before or after.
i’d like to feel so quiet and warm and soft again. looking at the snow, so soft and quiet and calm, i thought about that. i thought about when i was a child and i told my mother that i was so tired that even when i was dead and a skeleton with no eyes, i’d never be this tired. yesterday, i called her and told her i wanted to be with the snow, peaceful. you’d be too cold! she said.
my best friend told me she didn’t like seeing me this way. she told me how i see the beauty in the world around me and the words of these women who care hold me up. i’m not meant to be quiet and soft.
5:26 pm • 16 December 2013 • 3 notes
portraits of friends, embellished to excess
6:11 am • 12 December 2013 • 2 notes